Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Digital Art / Hobbyist Member Jenna O'CarrollUnited Kingdom Recent Activity
Deviant for 11 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 803 Deviations 5,741 Comments 69,025 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Random Favourites

deviation in storage by Radioactive-Newt

Groups

Friends

Commissions

Headshot commissions - OC Original characters fantasy sci fi anthro etc.
Neopets - Ysberin by kyan
Reuben by kyan
Gargoyles - Ix by kyan
Portraits - Jay by kyan
Digitally coloured, shoulders up busts. Male, female, anthro, human or anything in between. Delivered in PNG with transparent background, if you want colour instead just ask.
Can provide multiple sizes and resolutions if required (for use as icons for instance).

Don't have points? I accept cash via Paypal.

5 each or 800 points.
I hate christmas.

there's a lot of reasons I find this time of year difficult, reasons I see no point going into. Suffice to say, December is a very difficult time of year for me and while having kids has somewhat dulled the sting, the hurt is still there. And it's never gonna go away.

But i'm not really sure if i'm somehow projecting an aura of negativity that's tainting everything I touch or if the universe just feels like rubbing salt in my wounds, but as the weeks draw closer to the dreaded christmas, things just keep going wrong.

I got banned from one of my doll collecting groups for no real good reason other than the moderator is a two faced bitch. And that hurt bad enough.
but then a lot of other things started to screw up, and today I got banned from a long term rp for speaking my mind about being steamrolled.

Everything I try to involve myself in is rejecting me, and I have to believe that it's all me. I mean, the fact that so many things have gone wrong suggests it's got to be ME that's the problem.

Of course, that just leads to a whole big wallowing cesspool of self loathing. Because I needed to hate myself more didn't I?

I wish I could be someone else, someone people actually liked. Someone people stood up for, listened to, loved. But i'm not and I never will be.
And that... that is why even I can't stand me. And if I can't stand my own company, why should anyone else?

AdCast - Ads from the Community

×

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconalexusart-is-back:
AlexusArt-is-back Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday Monk! :D :iconletmehugyouplz:

I hope your day was splendid!
And I hope you are happy too :)Hatsune Miku-13 (Wink and Heart) 
Reply
:iconjasperinity:
Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014
Happy birthday! :D
Reply
:iconwreck-itralph:
Wreck-ItRalph Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz:
     :iconthecakeisalieplz:    :iconballoonsplz:  :iconletter-hplz: :iconletter-aplz: :iconletter-pplz: :iconletter-pplz: :iconletter-yplz:  :iconballoonsplz2:   :iconthecakeisalieplz:
     :party: :iconletter-bplz: :iconletter-iplz: :iconletter-rplz: :iconletter-tplz: :iconletter-hplz: :iconletter-dplz: :iconletter-aplz: :iconletter-yplz: :party:
:iconhappybirthdaysignplz: :iconpresentplz::iconbonklers::iconpineappletardplz::iconbummiesplz::iconlaplayplz::iconladrumplz::iconlabeatplz::iconballoonplz::iconpresentplz: :iconhappybirthday2plz:
:iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz::iconfaggedblackplz:
Reply
:iconbirthdays:
birthdays Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014
:iconballoondivider1::iconballoondivider3::iconballoondivider3::iconballoondivider3::iconballoondivider3::iconballoondivider3::iconballoondivider4:

:woohoo: :iconcakelickplz: :iconballoonsplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconballoonsplz2: :iconcakelickplz: :woohoo:

It's July 5th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

:iconballoonrideplz:

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

---
Birthdays Team
This birthday greeting was brought to you by: hiddendelights
Reply
:icontikidu:
tikidu Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014
hey! our birthdays are the same day!
Reply
:iconpurplemusic-b-ox:
purplemusic-B-ox Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
SpecialOCs Thanks you for becoming a watcher! :hug:
- - If you don't already know the watcher privileges, then check them out here: specialocs.deviantart.com/jour…

We wish you a great experience! :D
Reply
:iconeeren:
Eeren Featured By Owner May 5, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the watch!! ^O^ :hug:
Reply
:iconjidenlee:
JidenLee Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Student Filmographer
jidenlee.deviantart.com/art/Re…
Sorry I didn't have dis done in a day like I said I would, buuuut I got sick and... well... Here y' go. Hope you dig it.
:icongrin--plz:
Reply
:iconcristianaleone:
CristianaLeone Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2014
Hiya! Thanx a lot for :+devwatch:ing!! :la:
Reply
Add a Comment: